Anathema.

Burn O' World

Burn with me

As i go to Sleep

Fill poison in me

Wipe this Grin

Coz i will stand

In flames and all Blue

Seething red

As i see the real You.

The Hunger

The Envy

The Lust

All grounded to dust

I don't need them

Smirking in the shadows

The soul is lost

As are my sins.

Be my curse

The shade of death

My bloody omen

Burn me to hell.

How to Train the Dragon(You) Against the Bigger Dragon(Read : Monday)

I loved the movie "How to train Your Dragon". Quite a refreshing movie, it was.But please don't get confused with the movie. What I am about to write, and you read, is quite different. Literally.

This is all about, Monday. How hard we hate Monday. How we yearn that the Monday should never come. It’s not a person. It’s a demon re-incarnated to make your head go all dizzy. To make you believe in End-Of-Days. Monday Blues is a common trumpet and we all identify with it.

A Monday wouldn't be complete without the more-than-sober-screwed-up Sunday night. Realizing the event which will unleash in few hours, we try to be 'good'. Santa Claus will give you a gift only if you have behaved (sly smile). So it’s really a last minute effort and we know it ain’t good enough.

People will go on writing about how they hate Monday's and so on, sing about it, and write a poem about it (who does that???). My intentions are very pure and optimistic. I am going to tell you how exactly a Monday should be like, so that we don't find it ominous any more. And if you are a school/college goer, this doesn't regard you so get on with your life.

1. Office should start at 11AM. Atleast. There should be someone at the door to give you a drink (non-alcoholic, of course).

2. By the time you reach your sitting place, you are refreshed with your eyes as open as they can be.

3. You meet up with some people/Colleagues/Back stabbing ass's/Chai-waala (if you have) and take a quick look at the prettiest girl in the office, without making it obvious.

4. This might consume a lot of energy as you have just come back from a very busy-trying-to-relax weekend. You can't just start jumping around. Even monkeys don't do that (sigh).

5. So you need something to get back on your feet. Whatever it is, Get it or be nice to the one sitting next to you and ask him/her to get it for you.

6. Before you realize it, it’s almost noon. Time to start your long and slow walk, towards the canteen. On your way stop at every possible stop and ask people about their weekend. It will always bring a smile on their face. That might be because, after hearing how bitchy your weekend was, theirs wasn't so bad after all. Or they are just being polite and want you to move on.

7. Oh God!!! It’s almost 1:15. Have your Lunch and don't forget the paan/ice- cream/juice/tea/smoke.

8. The time has just crossed 2pm. You have met most of the people you were going to meet. Rest; anyways don't deserve your time.

9. Next 2 hours are very important. As people say, before gyming/playing you should do proper warm-up exercises, lest you pull a muscle or two. You will do some of the important tasks right now which will help you immensely by making you look occupied whenever your boss passes by (in the coming days).

10. Start your computer. (Everyone works on a computer is a general assumption. If by any ill-fate you don't fall into that category, go back for another round of ice-cream). Watch intently as the computer starts humming and gets a life (ya right?!!!).

11. Check your emails as they will determine the course of your destiny from now on.

12. Do a group-chat with all friends available, discussing all about the recent movies, the rumour going around and what not. Finally discuss something related to "Work". This is only like dusting your table. Nothing more. This will hardly take 15 minutes. Don't Panic and take a deep breath.

13. Now you have gotten through the "hard" part of the day. It’s all about planning isn't it? Open up that group chat window once again. Start the controversial topic...the headline that you saw on India TV yesterday night which made you ROFL.

14. Have you seen your watch?? Its 4pm. Time to visit the canteen again. To cry out your woes. To give shoulder to each other. To check what’s "new" around.

15. Well, what da ya know...its 5pm...And I gotta run.

See ya later fellas.!!!!!!

Have a Great Week.

:D

Keep talking to me.

Keep talking to me

As the night flows by

Please hold my hand

and don't let it go

As we start walking away

My heart starts to ache

You turn around to look

and the view takes my breath away

I stop and stare

But don't mind me

Just keep talking to me.

I close my eyes

In the broad day light

To get my feeling right

I picture you standing by my side

Oh how lovely you are

You bring spring to my heart

I am lost in your thoughts

Without any care of the world

But don't mind me

Just keep talking to me.

An Ode.

Tomorrow when the sun comes up

I would keep my eyes shut

As the day is not the same

When you are not here.

I lie in my bed

Thinking of what all i can do

But don't feel like getting up

As it is all a waste

All alone without you.

Memories rush to my head

Of the first day day that we met

I picture you laughing

Talking with all the zest.

You are my friend

Sweetest, closest friend

Your smile warms me up

I freeze the moment in my head

I am still lying in my bed

With my eyes closed shut

As i start going backward

To the day when we first met.

Nice Guys Finish Last

20th may,2008

It is still the same. I am not getting the right feelings for the past two days. All i can see is my own end. Hard to believe but right there in my face. No matter how hard i tried ignoring it, i was still sweating.

I always believed that there are reasons to one's action. I was treading on a false hope. I had my own fears, my own demons. Yet, the illusion of hope was very strong. Little time spent in waking hours, laughing, can make you forget that you still cant figure out the next minute of your life.

On hearing the words , which i was expecting, was a blow. Though it lacked intensity, it was strong enough to push me back into the corner. Now, that corner is getting all over me. I can break free, get moving but i don't want to.

Despair? No. Desperate? No. All i wanted was to fill the void which was expanding, while i was looking everywhere but there. Now the void isn't alone. It has accomplices such as despair, pain, loneliness. Grey turning to black.

A spark is needed to light a fire. I can definitely do with some sparks and a lot of fire. I have to burn that void somehow. I am not sure how i will do that but i have to try. But isn't that void a part of me. If yes, then why is it making me suffer. Won't it suffer in return too.

As i had thought, i was out of luck. I was never a lucky guy, but neither was i an unlucky one. This is bad. All corners are staring at me. Telling me that right now i am as empty as they are. I am as left out as they are. The worst part is, i think i believe them.

Where is my silver lining? Where is my sunshine? Had i been living in this dark all along, nothing i was going through would have mattered. Smile. Paste it on your face. Is it of any help? Can something be done about me eyes. They are giving me away. They are not helping me. They are making the mirror useless.

Its nothing more than a temporary recession. I will get back on the right track or at least on some track. I cant even explain my heart's heaviness. Well, someone has truly said:

NICE GUYS FINISH LAST!!

A Call to Fly

Long day
Sweat breaks
You smile
It's okay
and i try
to be like you
to fly like you

Night creeps
Sounds i hear
Breathing slowly
I see you
You are flying
Wings spread
High in the sky

I want you to call me
Give me wings
let me close in on you
let me feel your breath

Wake up
Its noon
Been dreaming again
But i feel you
I hear you calling
I am still trying
to be like you
to fly like you
I am so
deep into you

i want you to call me
i want you to call me
i want you to call me

i can fly too
just call me.

Chapter 2

"Jon you are required in the Chamber."

With a simple nod i started walking in the direction pointed to me. I have been near to the Chamber once but i had to bring coffee to the door. I am not ashamed of saying it, not many people get a chance to be even near it. I stood there admiring the door as behind it were the people who made the world different every second.

But this was different. I knew it. How? The man who pointed the direction was responsible for calling the required people to the Chamber and i had been called.

The Chamber was like a sacred ground for the people here. Only the priests were to enter and perform the ceremony that would keep the humanity alive. So i was the new chosen priest. Or was i? Anyway i had been walking for nearly 10 minutes to no avail. I was sure i was lost and then i saw the gates. There, above the gate, Chamber, had been etched into the wall. I was filled with anticipation and nervousness. The doors were of the old style. Not automatic but had to be pushed. Ironic, all our leaders speaking of the Future and yet we keep this semblance of the past and beyond them was the core of every minute details laid in the world.

Something came over me and with confident strides i walked up to the doors and pushed them open. I have been a skeptic always, questioning everything around me even the peace. The confidence was a mere facade to keep my curiosity checked. The Chamber was infront of my eyes and i was swallowing every bit of it. It was then my mind started working and i saw the key.

All now i had to do was find the lock.The right lock.